- Age / Gender:
- 28, Male
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I'm not one of the cool kids.
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Level 4 Blank Slate
Ranked as Civilian
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I'll probably delete this journal entry at a later date. I just felt like I should explain somethings about myself to an unknown audience.
I have this odd desire to be apart of an artistic community of some sort, however I find myself reluctant to step outside of my isolation. You'll see me pop in and out of chats periodically, but the reason for my sporadicness is that I have some inane anxiety about interacting with others online - or even in person. For some reason, the idea of keeping up with others is hard for me to process. I do leave comments and reviews on certain pieces and things online - but that's usually the extent of my online interaction with others.
I don't have lengthy conversations with anyone online. Sometimes I will recieve messages online from others, but I don't perpetuate the conversation. If anyone reading this has tried contacting me in the past, don't feel offended that I don't continue the conversation - this is how I am with everyone, even people I know in real life. As mentioned before, I have some anxiety about having friendships and connecting with others. My ideal friendships are ones that involve idle comments and bonds that don't wear - something others don't appreciate I've found.
There's not many people in my life that are regularly there. I have one person with who I see daily, other than that I work and go to school. Friendships for me are something that aren't immediate and when I meet with friends, it's usually a month or so at a time. It's very rare to meet with friends more than once a month.
With this being said, I feel some sense of guilt. I observe how some people interact with eachother online, and I desire something similar, only to realize that I'm preventing myself from having that. Maybe I'm just lonely and it's finally surfacing.
What I'm trying to say, I think, is that if I comment on something or reply to a comment, know that it's my form of bonding with someone, and even though it's not in-depth on the surface or has a lot of substance - to me it's quite a lot.
Thank you for reading.
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